| montreal part deux |
[Feb. 25th, 2007|04:06 pm] |
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| | motherfucking hungover | ] |
i don't think i've ever been more drunk in my life than i was last night. except for maybe when i was in montreal. i've gathered bits and pieces of information and details of my... actions. so far this is what i know:
i tried to park my car and got it stuck in a snow drift and on the curb in front of larson (this i actually remember)
we ditched my car and left for the party
i went from the art house to the felland house with emily for the ugly hat party
i found katie and went upstairs and collapsed at the top of them
then i started banging on a door and yelling to the people inside
then i talked to thor on the stairs
then i went and sat down with katie and a group of people
then i started crying hysterically and ran out of the house back to the art house
i somehow got back to larson
but mattia was carrying my pants and i was obviously not wearing them.
i was sick in the bathroom and shrieking "mellby's a gem" over and over to bri
then bri had to go dig my car out of the snow/off the curb at 4 in the morning
today i feel dead.
the last time i felt this badly was just over a year ago during the infamous weekend in montreal.
i'm never drinking again. |
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| You say potato, I say vodka. |
[Jan. 15th, 2007|05:55 pm] |
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| | fucked | ] |
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| | mae ... but why!?! | ] |
annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd i still love steve.
im such a fuck.
here's to the greatest emotional addictions of all time.
i also still love ronny and miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss everything everyday.
just get me to Boston and drown me in the Charles. |
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| its 14 degrees outside. |
[Nov. 29th, 2006|11:58 pm] |
for a really long time i thought i hated that brief time in friends when there was a joey-rachel thing but i actually, just now, became okay for it. when they are watching Cujo together i think i love it actually. its before it happens but joey loves her and that makes it so cute.
so thats that
in other news, I HATE LIVEJOURNAL! |
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| failed attempt through facebook |
[Nov. 11th, 2006|10:35 pm] |
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okay so i got a new cell phone but lost everyones numbers. so if you havent given me your cell phone number yet, please do. i tried to do this through facebook but i dont think everyone caught on.
so comment with your number
thanks |
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| my life as a complete failure |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|05:56 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | carmel sutra- omnify | ] |
i've been having bad dreams lately. i wouldnt be surprised if they al came true. i'm unhappy. who is surprised? hah.
this weekend was okay. at least we got to watch she's the man. i think i need to buy it.
i can feel you moving on and away from me.
"Woke up today to everything grey
and all that i saw just kept going on and on
sweep all the pieces under the bed
close all the curtains and cover my head
and what you wish for won't come true
you aren't surprised love, are you?"
Im starting to accept the fact that i will never ever meet my "potential" as a student, friend, human.
i hope youre as happy as youre pretending.
my soul is dying. |
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| i dont know anything anymore |
[Oct. 29th, 2006|12:31 am] |
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| | purgatory | ] |
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| | sad | ] |
you were my best friend
you were my lover
you were my mentor
you were my brother
you were my partner
you were my teacher
you were my very own sympathetic character
you were my keeper
you were my anchor
you were my family
you were my saviour
and therein lay the issue
and therein lay the problem
after 3 episodes of dr 90210 i have come to the conclusion that i don't think plastic surgery is the answer to most people's problems. maybe im just speaking for myself but i dont think a set of dd's will give me a better quality of life. i don't really know what could. i think maybe owning more dvds would help.
i took a survey the other day for the u of m and it was about impulsive behavior in college students. one of the sections was about buying things to make yourself feel better. i thought that was especially interesting.
ive spent over $350 since fall break.
life's a bitch. i need a new purse. i need a new soul. |
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| marc is an asshole |
[Oct. 28th, 2006|01:37 am] |
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| |  crushed | ] |
im sorry that you don't want to read any explanation i have. that is the last time i will try.
sorry your roommate hates me. i guess when you live with someoen for 2 months you know him better than if you date him for 3 and a half years. it doesnt matter. im done.
im sorry nothing i said was ever enough for you. |
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| Your eyes say the joke's on me |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|09:09 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
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| | Imogen Heap- Hide and Seek | ] |
If it was up to me, i'd never have to miss you. Its for the better in the bitter end.
I'm glad you're doing well. Unfortunately I can't say the same for myself. This further proves that i'm incapable of functioning on my own and now that i no longer have the life raft, i'm obviously drowning. I think its sad that i am all talk. I say i want to be independent and i need to be and am totally capable of living on my own and relying on no one but myself. but I relied on you just like i do on my parents and friends to get me through everyday. Now i can think about the classes i fail and the essays i don't write and the books i still read and the people i still remember. Now i think about everything in my life and how far away it is from what i expected. i am directionless. Its like ive been drifting just off the coast for years and only now have i completely lost sight of the shore.
I'm not sure where to go from here i just know this isn't right.
i'm losing touch. |
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| my own special selfish way |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|03:38 pm] |
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| | empty | ] |
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| | Alkaline Trio- Sorry About That | ] |
i realize we won't be able to talk for some time and i understand that as i do you. the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could. we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives. i will always have your back and be curious about you about your career your whereabouts.
I feel empty.
and fuck everyone. |
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